I think it’s sad….but I probably haven’t searched for God and longed for God as much as the Psalmist has.
81 My soul faints with longing for your salvation,
but I have put my hope in your word.
What’s it mean for my soul to “faint?”
I can’t even fathom that. I think it’s only been a rare occasion or maybe only a brief occasion where I am in so much trouble that I have no where to turn, but towards God.
Or maybe it’s not even that, but my memory is so short…just like the Psalmist and just like the Israelites. Reading through the old testament, we see the Israelites stumble and fall…..God saves them…only for them to fall into trouble again.
Same for the Psalmist, he gets himself into a lot of trouble, over and over again…..each time asking God to save him.
I guess that’s why it’s good to keep a journal. Because then you have a written record of what has happened in your life….and how God has saved you. This way you remember that God is good. The Psalmist obviously remembers.
89 Your word, LORD, is eternal;
it stands firm in the heavens.
90 Your faithfulness continues through all generations;
you established the earth, and it endures.
91 Your laws endure to this day,
for all things serve you.
92 If your law had not been my delight,
I would have perished in my affliction.
93 I will never forget your precepts,
for by them you have preserved my life.
If I commit to writing down the things in my life I struggle with…. Maybe this idea of “My Soul Faints” won’t be as alien to me. I will remember how much I have struggled and be amazed when I look back and see how God has saved me.